Test Run…

I think one of the biggest question we ask is “why do things happen the way they do?”

I’ve asked it, and my guess is, so have you.

I found myself in a great deal of pain again last night. I wrestled with God over what my next steps should be and I knew it was to go to the ER.

With my medical trauma, the ER isn’t my favorite place. Being re-traumatized…also… isn’t on my top list of fun things to do.

But ultimately my job is to listen and obey.

I just happened to be at Bible Study with some amazing women when the tears came and God asked me to go.

Nearly all of them volunteered to take me and I accepted. Which for me…shows growth and healing. My stubbornness often gets the best of me. But a stone of remembrance this was.

My friend who took me is also a masseuse and reflexologist. I can say with 100% certainty that I’ve never had someone utilize reflexology on my feet while I’ve been in the hospital and OH. MY. WORD. WHAT a difference!!!

From pain management to the Holy Spirit sitting with me around the clock, for the first time, I sat in a hospital room with complete peace.

So why was I there?

I don’t know. That’s my honest answer.

Pain management? Yes.

To remember? Yes.

For God to show me and remind me that He is with me. That He cares. That He sees. That He knows.

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.

I believe He allowed this as a trial run of sorts. To use as a stone of remembrance for the day, one month from now when, Lord willing, my colon gets removed.