The Power of Pain

I don’t know why the picture of a roller coaster continues to come to my mind as I process my pain, but nonetheless here I am again with the illustration of a roller coaster.

I told someone today that healing is like a roller coaster. Some days are smoother than others.

So that brings me to the power of pain. Some days I still have a sufficient amount of pain. This pain compels me to remember the pain that has been even worse.

Like the night in the hospital when my abdomen starting swelling with air. Pain so intense I could only cry out “Dear God help me” as my friend sat helplessly in the hospital chair interceding on my behalf.

I have known pain.

Pain can either propel us or push us to or away from God.

I wish I could say it has always propelled me to God. However, that would not be an honest statement.

I have questioned, I have been angry, I have gone silent and I have lamented.

Lamenting, I have learned is the healthiest option because lamenting leads to trust.

Do I trust God’s best for me?

C.S. Lewis says it best

If I could learn another way, God would have done it. If He wanted something else, He would have allowed it.

So in my pain, I trust that God is drawing me into a deeper, more intimate relationship with Himself.

Is it hard? 100%

Am I doing it great? Not always

I must chose to allow my pain to propel me towards Him.

The choice is mine.

We all have a choice today. We can allow our pain to propel us from Him or push us towards Him.

The choice is yours.